The word No

I discovered the word no
The look of disbelief and disappointment on some people’s faces has me cringing 😬

I’ve never said that word before nor am I proud of myself for saying it either but recent events have shown me the truth about some people

I feel bad of course being I’m naturally a giver and I won’t take money back from anyone who asks for my help or anything like that. I might ask for a favor in return though.

But with recent events involving a family member who as I put it an asshole to mostly anyone blood-related who lives here on Big Island has me asking my friends to help me before the deadline instead of my own blood. It’s embarrassing and frustrating for me to ask my friends for help.

I’m use to being the pack mule of the family which I know isn’t a good thing especially at my age now but I do what I gotta do to help whether you’re nice or not. But I’m starting to see most people for who they really are.

God help me and forgive me when I start with NO syndrome for now on. I feel bad yes, but it’s time I focus on myself once this is over